It hit me today, it hit me hard!

I'm leaving! I am leaving my 5 children at home for at least a month! It hadn't hit me yet, until I started packing the girls things today. As I packed I realized why I was packing. It wasn't for a weekend visit with grandma or an overnight trip to there aunt's or cousin's house, it is because I am leaving them for a really long time. WOW, the tears started flowing. I knew it would be hard to leave them, but today I got my first dose of just how hard it will be to not hold each of my kids each day. Regrets, NO...I have NO REGRETS, and NO SECOND THOUGHTS. I know I am doing the right thing, and nothing can change my mind. Patrick belongs home with us, period!! My kids WILL survive without me and vice-verse, although it will be hard and even painful. Thank God for Skype, at least I can see and hear them! We leave them in 3 days! Wow, I can't believe it is time to go already, time has just flown by since I first saw that precious face! We're coming baby, mommy and daddy are coming!